Bring Your Own Sunshine

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBBIE!!!

You are so very near and dear to my heart! You fill my darkness with light and love and I don’t know what I would do without you! You love me even at my worst and are just as stupid crazy weird as I am! I can’t wait to go on the adventure of marriage and be your companion and celebrate so many more birthdays! I love you, I love you, I love you!!! <3 <3 <3 

I’m not crazy but I feel that way some days…

I have anxiety. I’ve had it since I was young but I’ve been able to deal with it without medication or seeing a shrink. Unfortunately, when I get stressed it rears it’s ugly head and then every so often if it gets bad enough I’m prone to panic attacks and dear Lord do I hate those things.

I had a small one tonight. Pounding head and pounding heart, short gasping breathes, I was hot and my hands shook and tears escaped my eyes….not fun. But Robbie was there and he stopped it before it got worse. He’s the one whose always able to stop them. I don’t know what I’d do without this guy.

Dear stress….gtfo of my life……end personal post here. Goodnight!

My Engagement

So I know I said that I would tell all my followers the story of my engagement but never got around to doing it. Sooooo here it is now! 

I got engaged on February 14th, Valentines Day in Savannah, GA. Savannah is my most favorite city in the world and Robbie surprised me on Christmas that we would be going there to celebrate Valentines Day. So on V-day, his present to me was to get a spa day! I got a pedicure and I hour massage. Little did I know my adventure was about to begin.

As I was walking out the lady handed me an envelope and a map of Savannah and when I opened it the was a letter from Robbie saying that he was going on an adventure and he wanted me to go with him but I had to find him first! It told me that I would have to follow the clues to our favorite places in Savannah and at each stop I would get a memory, a clue to the next stop and a clue to where he was at! So my first stop was the Marc Jacobs store!

When I got there and walked in the people that worked kinda stopped talking and looked at me. I asked if a guy had come in and given them an envelope and they got really excited and said “YES”. Apparently Robbie had given everyone my description of the big, poofy, curly hair and the yellow sweater I was wearing. Anyways, they handed me my next envelope and a rose!

When I opened it, inside was a little Sith Lord figure, a picture of the two of us with song lyrics on it and the next clue of where to go. It lead me to Goose Feathers, our favorite breakfast spot! So I headed over there and when I did the ladies behind the counter looked at me and when I asked them about an envelope they got really excited and handed it to me with another rose. 

Once again when I opened it, inside was a picture of us, a Sith Lord figure, and a riddle to the next spot which happened to be Candy Kitchen located on River Street. I headed over to the most delicious candy place Savannah has to offer and walk in. The guy handing out samples behind the counter noticed me and got the manager who gave me a rose, my envelope and a free chocolate covered strawberry! I opened up my letter to find another Sith Lord figure, a picture and the next clue that took me Planet Fun!

Planet Fun is the coolest store around! It has really old games and manga and toys from the 90’s and 80’s and I could literally lose all my money there! The pokemon and Sailor Moon stuff is my fav but I’m getting off topic lol. Anyways when I got there I walked up to the girl behind the counter (whose name happened to be Savannah!). I got my envelope and rose from her and opened it to find another Sith Lord figure a picture, and a clue which read: You have all the clues, now come and find me!. 

….I was confused! I looked at Savannah and asked if she knew where he was and she said she did and she could help me out. She asked me what kind of figures I had and told her “star wars” and she chuckled and told me to be more specific and I said “villains” and she chuckled again and said even more specific and I said “…..Sith Lords?” She said “Yes! Now how many do you have?” I didn’t count and said “Three? No wait….five? Er….Four!”. Savannah replied “Okay….” and I looked at her and said “Errr….>.<…..” and then she whispered “Four…Sith….Forsyth Park?” and then I got it….”Oh Forsyth Park!” She smiled and said yes and told me to get on my way.

So I made my way to the park and I took my sweet time because I had no idea of what was going on. I only thought that I was going to get my present once I reached him at the park. I took pictures and touched buildings and looked at the sky enjoying my long walk to the park. So once I finally got around the corner I was looking at a building when I heard someone call my name. I looked and saw Robbie holding more roses so I walked over to him and that’s when I saw some hobo talking on his phone. Robbie told me to hold on a minute while he got his phone back but the hobo told HIM to hold on a moment! Like what?! So anyways he finally got his phone back and turned to me.

He smiled and asked me if I liked my adventure and of course I said yes and then he started his speech :) He asked if I enjoyed my walk and if I figured it all out. The reason he asked me here is because he really was going on an adventure and he wanted me to join him. And at that second  it clicked in my head and I started crying. He got down on one knee and pulled out the Tardis ring box and asked me “Will you be my companion?” And I had to nod yes because I was crying much too hard to answer. And then he stood up and kissed me.

And that’s that. Happily engaged and planning a wedding. It’s slow going to but I know in the end it will be worth it. :) What do you think guys? Best finance ever huh?

Anonymous asked: Aladdin

Wow not expecting this one off the bat. 

Well…I think the best story of this is when I was younger…maybe 10 or 11 years old. My mom was dating this guy who would later become my stepfather for a year of my life…a year of my life that was a living hell. 

I don’t wanna say his name…it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. But my mom loved him and I guess he treated her what she thought was good. He had a daughter too, and even though he didn’t always treat her the best, he still treated her better than me. I never said anything because I knew my mom was happy and I wanted her to be happy. Well there was one night…I don’t want to go into too much detail but involved alcohol and  screaming and beer bottles being thrown against the wall and my dog getting slammed into the ground and almost getting killed. I didn’t realize I was screaming and crying too. Anyways….this is probably getting off topic…but needless to say after he apologized and million times, crying that he would change….my mother forgave him and not long after they told me they were going to get married. And I of course…wanted my mother to be happy so I sacrificed my own happiness with lies that I was excited….so that she could be happy. In the end nobody was happy and thank God it didn’t last….

Anyhoo…that’s probably the best story I’ve got.

Sometimes I wish I could go back and re-live certain moments of the past. My favorite moments.

Hanging out with Autumn and Devin and Taylor in the afternoons after middle school.

Making food with Mana, Kyle, Diana and Sabina

Hanging out with all my little church babies who are now in highschool

Skipping school Senior year with Brittany and Lindsey and Jared and Melissa

Afternoons with Casey

Going to see Post Secret with Alicia before she moved back to CA

I need the Doctor and the Tardis right now please. Sometimes thinking about how these fun times had to end, makes me sad : /

I’m back from vacation and…..

I GOT ENGAGED!!

That’s right, my wonderful guy proposed to me on Valentine’s Day. I’ll tell you guys all the details and have some pictures up tonight when I get off of work! 

Hello from Savannah, Georgia!

I’m on vacation with my boyfriend for Valentine’s Day! You may not see me around Tumblr because the internet connection in the hotel room is pretty slow. Wishing all my lovely followers a Happy Valentine’s Day, and if you don’t have a valentine, I’ll be yours in spirit! 

Also, I’m excited to see if any penpal letters will be waiting for me in the mail when I get back home on Sunday! Talk to you all soon!

I wish I knew how to draw =/

I just wanna sit on the porch with some tea and watch BBC all day….

but I have to go to work.

Boo…